Yours' Truly

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I am madly in love with [ONEW] : )

I Love my Heavenly Father! Without Him, I am nothing.

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So Nyeo Shi Dae! Taeyeon, Jessica, Sunny, Tiffany, Hyoyeon, Yuri, Sooyoung, Yoona, Seohyun!

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♥ Today

Thursday, November 24, 2011 @ 11:12 PM

Today, I flared up. My past rebellious character broke out and I sort of scolded my friends. I felt bad but during that situation, there's nothing I could do but flare up.

The last thing that I want to do is to go back to the past, the self which I dreaded the most. The most obnoxious and selfish me. Quick-tempered, intimidating. But because the matter touched my sore point.

I'm tired. I'm helpless. I'm lost.

It's not the matter of losing my faith, I still strongly believe that Father is here to help me. It's humanity. I hate myself. I'm not stress, nor worried about school work. There's this feeling which I can't bring myself to feel what is it. This whole emptiness, this heavy feeling that I'm feeling. I figure out, it's helplessness.

I just want to bawl and cry out loud. Those emotions which are trapped within me for so long.

But even if I do that, will anyone hear those cries? Words of concern without action, do they still meant concern? After breaking the promises then apologise, for so many times, what does this mean?

Music, people judge me for listening to K-pop. But that is the only channel which could allow me to let it all out.

Praying, people judge me for being too religious. But no one can make me feel so loved and well protected, only God can.

LOVERHOLIC ROBOTRONIC