Saturday, February 28, 2009
BianTai-V blogged@ 8:21 PM___________________Went to DI Course today. 8.30am till 6pm.
There were 23 of us. So we started off having some session on how to be a good D.I and so on and so forth. Then at around 11am. We had drill practical assessment. In the beginning, was very tedious for me and my left arm went numb because the day before went to gym. But thank God, we had a break at around 12pm and we had lunch. After lunch, we had some rest time till 1.30pm and we continue doing drill till about 4plus 5pm. Then we had some debriefing. We are not yet qualified DIs yet. Got to do a national project and also a zonal drill test. The national project in my case, I had choosen to go the help up in the Corporal's Camp in the West area. 13thJune till 15th June. Got to go help up as drill trainer. JieNi too. (:
And and I've got my drill manual. (: So I know what to teach the Sec 2s already. (:
Oh ya, about yesterday's dinner. There's 10 of us. Shermeen, Pris, Ronney, LeongWei, WeiSian, HanLin, Sharon, Evon, Cherie and me. Evon treat us. Thank you! (: Heard about their Kbox trip. Sounds fun. Then we went to Golden Pines's second floor to take a group photo and then Shermeen, Sharon and Cherie left home. We played forfeit and Lady Luck's shining on me today. I didnt get any forfeit. (: Then we went home at around 9.30pm.
Does she stand a place in your heart?
Friday, February 27, 2009
BianTai-V blogged@ 4:20 PM___________________Hey, ohh, let me tell you no.
Oh baby.
Trying to decide, trying to decide if I,
really wanna go out tonight.
I never use to go out without you,
I'm not sure I remember how to.
I'm gonna be late gonna be late but, all my girls gonna have to wait cause,
I don't know if I like my outfit.
I tried everything in my closet.
Nothing feels right when I'm not with you,
sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choos.
Taking them off cause I feel a fool,
trying to dress up when I'm missing you.
I'm step out of this lingerie,
curl up in a ball with something Hanes.
In that I lay, with nothing but your t-
shirt on.
Oh, with nothing but your t-shirt on.
Hey gotta be strong gotta be strong but I'm, really hurting now that you're gone.
I thought maybe I'd do some shopping, but I didn't past the door and, now I don't know now I don't know if I'm, ever really gonna let you go and I, couldnt even leave my apartment.
I'm stripped down torn up about it.
Trying to decide, trying to decide if I,
really wanna go out tonight.
I couldn't even leave my apartment, I'm stripped down torn up about it.
Nothing feels right when I'm not with you,
sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choos.
Taking them off cause I feel a fool,
trying to dress up when I'm missing you.
Ima step out of this lingerie,
curl up in a ball with something Hanes.
In that I lay.
Hey hey, nothing feels right when I'm not with you.
Sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choos.
Taking them off cause I feel a fool,
trying to dress up when I'm missing you.
I'm step out of this lingerie,
curl up in a ball with something Hanes.
In that I lay, with nothing but your t-
shirt on.
In nothing but your t-shirt on(2x)
BianTai-V blogged@ 4:07 PM___________________Went to Gym in the morning with Evon and WeiLing. (:
We sort of dont know what to do at the beginning. We weren't like last time which we were fascinated by new equipments. hahas. After gym, we went to have a chat at 840 playground and then we played poker and left at about 12pm and went to FP to accompany WeiLing to buy her lunch and home sweet home.
Going out with BianTai for dinner. (:
Thank God that He had let me pass the DI test. (:
"): (:"
Thursday, February 26, 2009
BianTai-V blogged@ 2:36 PM___________________Went for a jog just now with Evon and Cherie. Ahh.. I'm so happy cause I'm taking my word seriously for adopting a healthy lifestyle. hahas. After jogging, we went to the normal hanging out place after a jog, 840 playground. We chit chatted. We talked about life in Secondary School. Then after that, at around 11.30am, we went off. Having a bike is cool. I love it. hahas.
Went home, have a bathe and no more things left for me to do anymore. Think I flunk my DI test already since I had not receive any news from HQ.
Cant go out tmr with them in the afternoon for Kbox due to some reasons. But I want to go. ]= But I will be joining them for dinner afterwards. I wanna know the surprise! Evon! Tell me! ]=
Going to my favourite place tmr! The Gym! hahas. Sorry LeongWei, cant ask you along because you have school.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
BianTai-V blogged@ 10:42 PM___________________Went out for lunch with Shermeen, Evon and Cherie. We went to Ehub, level 4's Nebo Cafe for our lunch. The chicken soup was nice. hahas. Gonna search for it. Then had our lunch and LeongWei came to find us. He had his drink and then we went off to arcade to play. At first, Shermeen wanted the Mickey Mouse but in the end, one of the Minnie Mouse's ear got stuck on the net and she won it but she gave it to Cherie cause Cherie loves Minnie Mouse. hahas. Then they played Mario Kart and then we played Daytona then basketball then many many more. It started pouring outside but we were playing happily inside. :D
Then we went to NTUC to search for the soup but it was not sold on that particular outlet. We went to Orchid Bowl downstair and Sharon and HanLin came. We played two rounds. First round, I've got a point of 73. Yay! Improvements! Then second round was a bit blur at first cause we didnt know which lane to bowl but after that problem was solved. [=
We went off at 7 plus and it was still raining. They were talking about the Chalet. Then to save our bus fare, we walked home and we talked about going to gym. I wanna go. =D
I had a lot of fun today. hahas. [=
Off for a jog tmr! :D
I had not done my sit ups yet so I'm gonna do 40 because I didnt do it yesterday. I will have integrity. Must have discipline! [=
Ever wonder what will become of us. I dreamt of it last night and I was blissfully sleeping soundly throughout the night.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
BianTai-V blogged@ 1:49 PM___________________Okays, in the morning, accompanied mummy for her regular medical checkup. Went all the way to Orchard cause the hospital is located there. It's Mount Elizabeth Hospital where my elder brother and me were born. :D
It was empty when we first reached there then subsequently people starts coming. The checkup was fast. We were out of the hospital in about 30minutes time. Oh ya, on the way there, on the train ride, there's this couple quarrelling. The lady was practically shouting which arouses everyone's attention in the cabin. She was shouting to the guy in chinese like, "you dont touch me.", "Get away from me la." hahas.
On the way back, brother's girlfriend sms-ed me. Telling me that they wanted to celebrate my brother's birthday, which falls on 24th March, one week in advance. And on mum's off day which is on 17th March. I'm stunned. I dont know why, I keep repeating the word, shit, all the way home. hahas. Because 17th march, there's BianTai chalet and I wanted to stay on that night. How how? ]=
How how? Never mind, I will think of a way. If there's a solution, there's a way. :D hahas.
Off to GB in about 45more minutes. [=
Monday, February 23, 2009
BianTai-V blogged@ 3:19 PM___________________Went to gym in the morning with Evon and this time with WeiLing too. [=
We spent 2 and a half hours there. From 9.40am till 12.10pm. We did a lot of things and also, tried a lot of equipments that I didnt dare to do it. I tried the pull ups thing and it was fun. hahas. It was not the original ones with just a bar above your head but this equipment which we had tried is actually with weights. And it was fun. [=
Gym is going to be my next favourite place. [= Just a mere $1.50 and you could spent hours and hours working out in there.
BianTai chalet will be held on 16march till 18 march. 3 days 2 nights. I want to stay overnight but seems that it's quite impossible plus heard that it's quite ulu so dont want to stay overnight anymore. hahas. Think I will go there and have fun. [= I'm looking forward to it. hahas.
Sometimes it's not about being alone, it's about being left out and walking away is the only choice left.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
BianTai-V blogged@ 12:10 PM___________________It's Sunday and yet another week past by. I still had not received my TP package.
I'm glad that my leg muscles were not aching. I thought they would but they didn't. But I sustain a slight injury. The starting of the test, everyone was banging their legs so loudly and then I got nervous that I bang loudly with them and snap. Think something snap in my left ankle. But think it's nothing serious, since it's not hurting. [=
But even though my legs were not aching, my arms surely were. Especially my left arm. Think I lock it too tightly during the Stage 1 test. My stomach muscle is aching too, which I don't know why. hahas.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
BianTai-V blogged@ 5:11 PM___________________Wake up early in the morning and I had a terrible night. Not because of the nervousness but because of the bruise that I had mentioned on the last post. I think that my capillaries had been quite vulnerable these few days. A little knock and it hurts. My skin is thin! :D
Found the mosquito that bit me! Ha! I found you! Dad said that there's a lot of blood when he kill it.
Saw JieNi at the bus stop and we went to buy our breakfast and off to GB HQ. There's about 40-50 girls taking the test. So we were split up into four groups. Jieni and me were in the same contingent, contingent 4. All I want to say is that, it's exhausting, more than exhausting. Four stages in a row. But we had small breaks in between. So, I had commanding part first. Then to DS 1, 2 and 3. Each section is like taking a real Drill stage. So it's very tiring. It had been a year since I had done intensive drill. And the girls taking the test are all elites. It was as if they had been doing drills for years and years. The way they fall in shows it all. If a finger was placed under their boots, the fingers will break. hahas. But I learnt a lot of things. Whether will I pass or not, I will commit unto God's Hand. [=
We slept in the bus on the way home. Cause we were both tired but think Jieni's more tired cause she just had her Sec 1 orientation camp. Rest well! :D
"Hope for a wish come true."
Friday, February 20, 2009
BianTai-V blogged@ 2:54 PM___________________Finally, after weeks of planning to go for a morning jog, I fulfilled it today. hahas. If not for Evon monster, I doubt I will be doing this today. I had been kinda lazy to wake up early in the morning to go for a morning jog but after today, I want to go jogging every day if I could. After jogging, and you will perspire. The feeling is definitely great. Sweat dripping. hahas. [=
We jogged 4 rounds around the stadium but we say we must jog more than 4 rounds next time we go again. Which will be very soon. [=
After which, we went to a fitness corner in the Stadium, we did sit ups. Man, since dont know when I had not been doing sit ups. So was abit tough to get up after doing about 20. hahas. The wooden plank was hard. Duh. hahas. My bone were knocking against it everytime I go up and down. Now, it hurts, I think there's blue black. hahas. I promise myself to do about 20 for a start every day. And I will increase it after getting use to it. [=
Yay. Horray to healthy lifestyle. hahas. After that, we went to 840's playground to chit chat and there's this lady sleeping there. Wasting a packet of Oreo by throwing it on the floor. So wasted. hahas. We talked about quite a lot of things. Then went home at about 11.15am.
Reached home and mum ask me why I'm so late and she said she thought I ran away from home because I did not bring money along and my handphone. hahas.
Downstair, the workers were spraying insecticide and then cockcroaches came into our house and lucky, they were small ones. And my younger brother told me that there were more downstair.
No wonder global warming is so serious nowadays cause Singapore alone, or rather, my house area alone, had already contributed a lot to it. Renovations were everywhere. Lift upgrading, road repairations. Both air and noise pollutions were contributed. Must put a stop to it!
After tmr, I must adopt a healthy lifestyle. :D
I was watching a TV drama show yesterday after playing basketball and was mesmerised by what the actor had said and till now, what he had said was still on my mind.
"I dont know since when, but we both came along the same path. Just as you shook me, you brought my heart out of my hidden cave. Just like my heart was broken, I became more and more curious of you. I wanted to see you, and with the mere thought of you, I smiled silly. You made me into a fool. After you made me into a fool, you wanted to leave me."
I know there's nothing special about these lines but just found them sorrow yet touching at that moment of time.
Oh well...
If only, make-believe fairytales could be happening in reality...
Thursday, February 19, 2009
BianTai-V blogged@ 8:31 PM___________________Went out for lunch with Pris, HanLin, Shermeen, Evon and Sharon. Then WeiSian came cause he didn't go to school. Didn't eat much because I was quite full. After lunch, Shermeen left and we headed to 840's playground and play. When we reached there, we were discussing about having a BianTai home. hahas. Where we live together. Or rather, when we get together, we will go to that house we had bought. So cool. hahas. After that, we play true or dare but only had the true part. Evon and me got to answer what they asked. Then after that, played Heart Attack. Was quite slow today. hahahas. Then they play a round of blind mice and then colour something. hahas. Then Pris got to go and I accompanied her. We were at a playground where there were a group of small malay boys saying we were at their turf and wanted to hit us. hahas. Evon came to pass Pris something and they were chit chatting and then bus came and she went off and saw LeongWei. Went back and saw JianXin, JiaCheng and Herman. Jianxin say my shoes could be bought at $101 at his workplace. Man. I bought it at $119. sigh.
Play basketball with Sharon, LeongWei and Weisian. Being a shortie could be sucky sometimes. hahahs. But I'm proud to be one. hahahas.
We went to the coffeeshop again to have our high tea. hahas. Went to CP basketball court. HanLin, Leongwei were playing basketball whereas Sharon, Evon and WeiSian play poker card. Then Hanlin had a rest because he stomachache. Take Care! And jiayou for tmr's test! Played basketball with LeongWei and the sun was so bright today. hahas. Went home at around 5plus 6pm. Today BianTai was so lethargic. hahas. Maybe because of the hot weather. It was 33 degree celcius today. No wonder it's so hot.
Went home and saw my elder brother red throughout. Thought he went to a swim and then he told me he went to Sentosa to play Beach VolleyBall.
Man, I'm so scared. My boots dont know if it could tahan the long hours of drill. The crack was going to reach the end. If I do drill halfway and it cracks open how? hahas. God bless. I hope Saturday faster come and faster go. [=
"The feeling of loving each other. [= But will reality allows that?"
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
BianTai-V blogged@ 11:59 AM___________________Just now went to gym with Evon. Even though it's weekday there's still quite a number of people there. I rode my bike with difficulty cause I had yet to bring it to change the inner tube but had changed it because Evon accompanied me to go to the bicycle shop. Thank you Evon Monster. [=
Did you watch "Serve You Right" yesterday night? It was not one of the shows which I will watch but I watched it last night because I saw the commercial and I saw Junyuan Sec. I was stunned and thought that I had saw it wrongly but I watched it at my aunty's house last night. It's really is my school. There's still some modern dance people there. I saw Kamil.
I was reading The Newspaper after watching the show and there's this article of the youngest parents in UK. Father was only 13 this year and mother, 15. For more details, read the paper. [=
My aunty was better after the op. So, really Thank God. [=
If only I could keep you to myself. But I know I can't because it's too late.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Labels: Amazing Grace BianTai-V blogged@ 1:59 PM___________________I changed my blogskin again. But I still could not find the right one that I really really like it. I will continue with my search. [=
It's 2o'clock now. I'm staying at home but going out tonight to visit my aunty. She's not feeling well. Heard from mum that she got cancer. Saw her just few weeks ago, still strong and fit but never had I expected that to happen. Well, what could I say, life is full of the unexpected. I will pray for her. Because I dont want my baby cousin to lose her mum just like that. I believe God will be able to heal her. Because I truly have faith in God that He is more powerful than any doctors alive in this big big earth. God is more than a healer to me. He's my Father. He's one that I could confide in. And that I will always feel relieve telling Him my troubles. I know that some might think God will never hear, I am just saying my problems out to the empty air. But I truly believe that God is there to listen to me. He's not just there for me but also for those who seeks Him. No words could express how amazing His grace is. You got to feel it and experience it on your own. Up till now, I'm still am grateful that God found me and that I am growing each day. [= My ultimate goal is to becoming more and more like Him and of course to help everyone to accept Him. Love Him for He loves us. [=
What does it means when you feels everything so out of place when someone is not around and when that person is around, things that seems so bleak turns hopeful again?
Monday, February 16, 2009
BianTai-V blogged@ 9:58 PM___________________I'm rotting rotting rotting. hahas. My brain is protesting and I think that's the reason why my head is aching now. I'm vex. I never felt this way before. Maybe because boredom had drive me to insanity. It will be until Thursday that I could go out. And I'm looking forward to it. [=
But when Thurs comes, Saturday will come. Sigh sigh. ]=
I'm Rotting rotting rotting. [=
I will be able to find something to do. I will and I could. [=
Challenge myself. Face the boredom and conquer it. hahas. I'm going nuts. hahahas. That's why I'm talking senselessly now. =D
BianTai-V blogged@ 3:23 PM___________________Today is just like any other typical Monday so there's nothing to say about and there's nothing exciting happening too. But does postman coming to the wrong unit counts? There's this postman came knocking at our door. He did not press the doorbell but knock on the wooden door. And he shouted "postman". hahas. My mum opened the door and was told to sign to get the parcel. As her hands were oily, she told me to sign it. When I was about to ask that postman where do I sign it, he gave a shocked gasp. hahas. He said he saw the wrong unit number. My mum was saying, "blur", under her breathe whereas me, was smiling helplessly at the postman. hahas. I also don't know why I was smiling at that postman maybe I think that he heard what my mum said. hahas.
I received the mail from JieYing informing about Saturday's Drill test. It's from 8.30am to 1.30pm. Must be punctual and that means to wake up early. Had to wear full uni. sigh. hahas. They will start registration at 8.30am and 8.45am will be the Theory test which will last for 45 minutes. Then practical test which includes Drill Stage 1 to 3 and also there's a part for commanding. Each will last for 1hr and there's no break in between. So got to do a straight 4hr drill. Which means. oh shit. hahas.
Thinking back, I think that East Coast Park was a nice beach. At least some part of the sand there are fine and pretty nice to walk on and not as dirty as other beach. But it's too far. hahas. And I still don't know how to go there yet. Maybe I should go explore one day. hahas. [=
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Labels: Hope BianTai-V blogged@ 3:05 PM___________________Finally went to church today after months of not going there. So, today's sermon was fun. I'm quite happy with myself cause I had wrote down notes. (: Today was discussing about the Beatitudes. Matthew 5:5.
On the way to meet them, I was very forgetful. I went downstair, saw a bus and could not find my wallet. Then I remembering lefting it on the table. hahahas. Then went up to take my stuff and by the time I went down, it was quite late already, so sms-ed Jieni but she dropped her phone yesterday in the cab. hahas. So, left them waiting for me. So sorry. hahas. I didn't went for Kaleo today. So, I left before them. Walked home to save bus fare. Man, I don't like adult fare. hahas. Just a few trips and had to top up again. And each top up's minimum is $10. ):
Gonna have DI test this coming Saturday. So will be out from morning till afternoon. All the best! :)
"):"
Saturday, February 14, 2009
BianTai-V blogged@ 11:47 PM___________________I could not get to sleep again last night. I slept at 12.30am. Then I lay on the bed. 1 o'clock past, 2 o'clock came, then 3 o'clock. The last time I checked my phone it's 3.58 in the morning and after that I dozed off. I don't know why I could not get to sleep these few nights. Maybe I'm thinking too much. There's a lot of things running in my mind when I'm going to bed. Cause I'm doing reflection, thinking about things. Imagining things. hahas.
Okays, I met KaiLin at 1.15pm and she reached at about 1.30pm while I reached at 1.10pm. During the time when she's not around, I feel out of place. hahas. Actually, from the start when I started walking to meet her, I already feels out of place. There's a lot of couples. Girls, smiles plastered on their faces. Went to WhiteSands to meet her as she wanted to buy things. Then problem came. We don't know how to go to East Coast Park. hahas. So called LeongWei to find. And in the end, went back to Tampines to find them and go together. Saw Pris with her parents at BHG and we set off at around 3pm. We reached the chalet at around 4.20pm. We were earlier than Cherie. hahas. Then after she came, we put down our stuffs and went to explore the place and after that, went to the beach. We wanted to go to the water breaker or is it break water? hahas. I don't know. But anyways, that place, I didnt dare to step any closer. hahas. There's quite a number of couples there. Here's two photos of the water breaker/break water I'd took. .JPG)
Not so clear but those black figures are those couples. hahas. I had fun there. They started playing some card games, firstly is "in between", forfeit is pumping. Because I'm a girl, they say LeongWei help me do. hahas. So sorry. hahas. Then Cherie's god-brothers started joining in and they played very fierce. The number of pumpings were astronomical. hahas. Cherie cut the cake and we sang her birthday song and WeiLing, HuiRong and me left. We boarded the bus at the wrong side! Instead of going straight to Bedok Interchange in the end, the bus went one big round and we left the chalet at 8plus. Boarded the bus at 9.05pm and we were back to square one at 9.50pm. Then reached Bedok Inter at 10.40pm. Because my stomach is empty, ever since breakfast I ate nothing, my head was spinning along the long bus journey and I'm feeling very unpleasant, wanting to vomit. But thank God, I reached home before 11pm. Before my curfew. :DAnyways, I'm looking forward to BianTai Chalet which will be held during the March holiday and I hope I could stay overnight and and I'm going church tmr! :DFinally, I want to say, this is the best Valentines I had for the past 16 years. hahas. Ever since I'm born, I never spent my valentines with anyone before. So, I'm happy. [= Hope to spent with BianTai next time. :DHAPPY VALENTINES DAY!I'm hungry! =P
Friday, February 13, 2009
Labels: Stamina BianTai-V blogged@ 8:18 PM___________________Man. Too long didn't do drill and I've got to build up my stamina. Next week will be Drill Instructor Qualifying test and I've got about 6days to build up my stamina. I would like to train myself to be able to say timing while marching. And also, got to learn the commands and the spellings.
After doing hentak, my legs go wobbly. hahas.
Anyways, got to go for jogging every morning. Jiayou!
I will be praying for Jieni cause she is not as free as I do. She had camp and she might not have time to prepare and I believe she can do it. [=
Vday's tmr! And today is Friendship day.
Oh man. I feel like crying. How do I get to East Coast Park tmr and how do I go home from there? Guess if I got lost, I will have to hail down a cab and go home. hahas. Must bring extra money. hahahahs. God will guide me home. [=
"Ouch. My right shoulder."
Labels: Valentine BianTai-V blogged@ 2:44 PM___________________If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you
If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you
And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
You're all I need
My love, my valentine
All of my life
I have been waiting for
All you give to my
You've opened my eyes
And shown me how to love unselfishly
I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
In my dreams I couldn't love you more
I will give you my heart
Until the end of time
You're all I need
My love, my valentine
And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
Cause all I need
Is you, my valentine
You're all I need
My love, my valentine.
BianTai-V blogged@ 2:30 PM___________________I knock onto a drawer yesterday. I was sitting beside it then suddenly a bug came flying by and I catapulted myself up and there goes my shoulder knocking against the hard drawer. hahas. Now I could not sleep with my right shoulder underneath me. Tsk. hahahas. There's no visible bruise but I could feel the pain. Even relaxing my right shoulder do more harm than relief. hahas.
Today was not so bad. Not as horrible as yesterday. I'm going out at 5pm to meet Jieni. Having drill practises with her till 7pm in school. So, not meeting her on tmr. I'm still deciding to whether should I go out tmr. Ever since last Sat, I dont know if I could go out not. hahas. If I'm going, I will be going with KaiLin. But we will be going there for awhile only so, should be ok. I think. hahas.
I'm gonna spend my Vday with God. hahas. [= Till forever, God will always be my valentines. hahas.
My bike deflated! hahas. No wonder that day when I rode home, it seems so difficult to ride it fast. hahas. It was till just now that I noticed that the back wheel was deflated. hahas. Gonna pump it or else I had to walk to go play basketball. hahas. I'm lazy. hahas. =P
And also! Today is Friday the 13th! hahas. It is said that when the 13th lies on Friday, the whole day will be bad luck for people. But I dont really believes in this kind of thing. hahas. :D
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Labels: Lesson Learnt BianTai-V blogged@ 10:17 PM___________________Today was, don't know why, a very long day to me. It seems long, it felt long and I'm glad that today is going to end in about, well, 1hour plus more. I had been very free from the day ever since I finished my Olvl. Today, I had no mood to do anything except using my brain. Ya, I had been daydreaming. Today, my heart was especially complicated. Empty, mix, vex etc. Anything but happy. It had been very long since I feel this way.
The only getaway is going to fetch my brother from school. The sun is scorching hot. No wonder forest fire rate was astronomical. Saw Ronney, HanLin and their friend which I think her name is JingXin, my going-to-be senior. hahas.
Night time, I finally learnt a lesson. I had learnt that, next time, when I'm going to decide something, I will think it very very thoroughly. I will think whether will I have time for the thing I'm going to do and whether will I like to spend time doing this particular thing. I had learnt a lesson.
Saturday will be spent alone. hahas. Like duh. hahas. I'm still pondering whether should I go to cherie's chalet or should I go find Evon they all. hahas. I wonder when will I be able to spend my Vday with someone special. hahs. Maybe after a million years. hahas.
"Spend Vday with you. When?"
Labels: Empty BianTai-V blogged@ 3:55 PM___________________My com had been haywired this few days. Either it is not working on it's normal way or just that the mouse is not being co-operative at all. Think maybe because it had been on for too long. So I will kick the habit of using the com everyday. But I always got the urge to use the com to check and read other's blogs. hahas. There's really nothing to do except blogging and reading blogs and nothing else to do. I just went to read my blog posts from the beginning to the end. Think I had grown quite a lot. From the past till now, I can say that I had grow up and become more mature in the way I think. I used to be very foolish. Doing all sorts of nonsensical things just to have my way. But I'm glad that God had made my grown and think in His way. So, I'm glad that I have God. [=
"I feel empty."
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
BianTai-V blogged@ 9:10 PM___________________Today is so fun. [= Firstly is that I'm able to ride my bike for so many many time and also riding it fast. [= I went to Evon's house in the morning. I leave my house at 10am and reach her door at 10.25am. 25minutes is all that takes, I can't imagine if I walk there. hahas. We went to CP basketball court and reach there 10minutes before 11am. We were waiting for Kiat Wee so, while doing so, we played the game, stress. I keep losing. hahas. Saw a new playground and we could play Blindmice. hahas. Kiat Wee came and we played awhile till around 12pm. We had our lunch very quickly and off to find Sharon at Evon's house. I remembered leaving CP at 12.35pm and we were back at CP in less than half an hour. The power of bike riding. [=
HanLin, ShiJie and a lady were there having lunch and we started playing and we had rest and we went to play Blind Mice at 840. Then Leong Wei came. After that, we went to play block catching. Sharon and me were the HQs and we had fun watching them play. hahas. After that it started raining and off to play Blind Mice again. Then play basketball.
Anyways, all I want to say is I love BianTai. Every single one of the BianTai-ians. I really thank God that I could have them as my beloved BianTai mates. [=
Next Sat will be DI test. Oh man. ]=
I had been suffering from insonmia this few nights. I must lie on the bed for super long before I fell asleep. I dont know why. I'm not stress, maybe I'm thinking too much about [=
"Do you feel the same way as me? [="
"Knew that I will feel this way after seeing you. It's not bad to see you but I dont know why the past will come flowing back. Maybe time will resolve everything."
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
BianTai-V blogged@ 9:48 PM___________________Wohoo. I'm not feeling discouraged today. In fact, I'm happy. You know why? Cause everytime I go to GB on Tuesday, the number of Sec1s will be increasing. Today the total number of Sec1s are 13. Two are new, one is transferred from Band if I'm not wrong. Also, I'm happy because today the Sec2s are very good. They don't talk that much anymore but they almost end up quarelling. Sigh. hahas. I believe it is God who had helped me with them. Thank God! [=
Went out to buy a shoe as my old pair of shoes were worn out. I saw some familiar friends. Lester and Lindy and also Cherie and her mum. Tmr gonna play basketball and I'm like Pris, still having the party fever. I want to play forfeit again. hahas. [=
"I must remain calm and stay focused. I don't want to think too much cause I'm afraid that what I think will never become a reality and disappoint myself."
Monday, February 9, 2009
BianTai-V blogged@ 8:44 PM___________________I had been a good girl these few days. I had been reading the newspaper. Since erm last week. There's this news which caught my attention. It happened in Malaysia. It's about giving birth. Instead of staying in the mother's womb for ten months, you know what, the baby was in the mother's womb for ten years. Full ten years. As quoted in the news, "Made in 1998, registered as a product in 2008." You know how? Actually the lady featured in the news had four miscarriages before and she keeps on trying. One of the miscarriages was called a ectopic pregnancy. It was a twin but she had to removed it because she had no choice. The baby is outside of the womb instead of inside. So over the years, she had four miscarriages in total. Finally she got a baby but she's very weak. The doctor advised her to recuperate before giving birth to the baby in her. What the doctor do was that he frozen her embryo. Also stated in the news was that this frozen of embryo could last for 50 years and even 100 years. So cool. hahas.
Also, I was reading yesterday's newspaper and the first few pages was of course talking about love since valentines day is coming. I had read news of unconditional love. And many more. But still, the news of the frozen embryo is still the coolest. hahas. :D
BianTai-V blogged@ 5:04 PM___________________Yay! Manchester United got to the first. All thanks to Ryan Giggs who scored the only score this morning. The score is 1-0. West Ham united got 0. hahas. Too bad Cristiano Ronaldo didnt score but at least my fav. team got to the top of the table.
Okok enough of this. hahas. Going back to GB tmr. [=
And also, Congratulations to Pris that her appeal was successful and that we could be schoolmates once more. Our clique will never separate. hahas. And also, congrats to WeiLing that her appeal to Leisure and Resort Management in TP had been a success. Congratulations. For those who had unsuccessful appeal, dont worry. This is not the end. Because I believe God is working. [= Jiayou!
Basketball on Wednesday. [=
Sunday, February 8, 2009
BianTai-V blogged@ 9:00 PM___________________Shucks shucks
I'm grounded. For two days! Think I had mentioned before. hahas. But it's ok. I will gain my freedom on Tuesday cause my mum will be bringing me out on that day and I think I will have GB too. hahas.
Also, daddy said next time when I'm going out, I must be back by 11pm. Tsk tsk. hahas. My brother could go out till so late everytime! hahas. But that's ok with my parents because he got a girlfriend. So if I want to stay out late, I must get a boyfriend. Joking! hhaas. =P
okok. I want to change my blogskin! Byes! :D
BianTai-V blogged@ 12:58 AM___________________Well, today is Saturday and went back to GB to help. The Sec4s were not around, the Sec3s, Jieni and JieYing were busy so that left the Sec2s and 1s. Also, HuiYan, Jami and me. Had devotion first thing first as usual. Off for Brigade Knowledge for the Sec1s. I'm lucky to escape from them cause they were forcing HuiYan and me to sing the vesper. Off for drill practice with the Sec2s. Was rather discouraged once more. Everytime after teaching them, I will always feel discouraged. I had do my best to be strict with them and to do my part, teach them what they are suppose to know and improve in areas which they are weak on, but everytime in return, there will be girls not happy with the lectures I gave to her. So I today sort of gave up, I told them whether they are happy with my teachings or not, it's up to them. I just there to teach and do my part. Ya. I pray to God that I could help them and go according to the plan which I had thought of the night before meeting them. So I did not join them for games.
Rush home, rush to meet Cherie then KaiLin. Was rushing in and out in and out. Went around because KaiLin want to buy a top for herself. Off to meet HanLin and Ronney at the School's bus stop. Then Jonathan Mama came then Evon. Off to Pris's house. Even though her house is small, but it's cosy. It looks more like a house as compared to big houses which lack the feeling of cosy-ness. So there were HanLin, Ronney, Jonathan Mama, Cherie, Evon, KaiLin and me at first. We introduced ourselves to their parents and then after that, LeongWei and WeiSian came. We were looking at the photo albums and about 6plus 7pm, Pris's parents had went out so the house left us. Shermeen and Guo Harn came and she bought her Yu Sheng which cost $28.88. hahas. But in the process of going to have dinner, I had upsetted it. I feel really sorry to have create a mess in her house. Sorry sorry.
Then I played a round of mahjong with Evon's help. And after that, went to play forfeit. LeongWei got a lot of forfeits. hahas. He's the King of Forfeit. hahahs. Then after that Sharon came. And we went down to the nearby playground at around 9.25pm. They played Blindmice. Because I am a sucker in this game so I am the guider and not the player. hahas. They were all as agile as monkeys. KaiLin went off and then followed by Shermeen and Sharon. We went back upstair and there's like a feeling as though we are all living together. I think that will be very nice if we all live together and have fun every day. [=
We played forfeit again and then Murderer. I like to play the role of Policewoman. It was very fun. hahas. Home at around 11.40pm. But due to the bus, I reached home quite late. I alighted at the bus stop which is after the side gate so I had to walked under the block of 885. It was dark and there were no people. I was very scared and I keep praying to God. And thank God, I reached home safetly. Amen. When I reached home, my mum was livid. And so, I will auto ground myself for two days, which is tmr and Monday. And Tuesday, I will go back for GB. [=
I really had a lot of fun today. It was really a gathering of my life. I hope there will be more of this. Thank you Pris for opening your house for us. Thank You thank you. [=
And also, thank you Pris, Shermeen, Evon, Cherie, Sharon, KaiLin, LeongWei, WeiSian, Jonathan mama, Ronney and HanLin for the great fun. Hope we will gather together again soon. [=
Friday, February 6, 2009
Labels: Five Loaves and Two Fishes BianTai-V blogged@ 3:02 PM___________________After listening the blog song from Pris, I went on a research on Corrinne May. She's a great singer and most importantly, she sings for God. I had been looking for this kind of singer. Singing praise and worship God. Then I found this song, "Five loaves and two fishes". It's a very nice song and Jade had introduced this song to me too.
This song impacted my a lot. I had been worrying about what's coming in my near future and what will the problems be like and how will I solve it and especially when I'm going to Poly soon and new environments and everything to be start afresh. But I'm lucky to have Lord in my life. Without Him, I'm lost. Sometimes I will even think that if that time I had never go and accept Christ, what will my life be becoming. But thank God and His amazing grace, I'm saved. Amen
Corrinne May- Five Loaves and Two Fishes
A little boy of thirteen
was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing
and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening
to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom,
even the kids could understand
The hours passed so quickly
the day turned to night
Everyone was hungry
but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox
at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do
there were thousands to be fed
But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
the kindness in His smile
and the boy cried out
with the trust of a child
he said:"
Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
to feed them all"
I often think about that boy
when I'm feeling small
and I worry that the work I do
means nothing at all
But every single tear I cry
is a diamond in His hands
and every door that slams in my face
I will offer up in prayer
So I'll give you every breathe that I have
Oh Lord, You can work miracles
All that You need is my "Amen"
Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as You will I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small
I trust in You I trust in You
Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as You will I surrender
Take my fear and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
no gift is too small
Thursday, February 5, 2009
BianTai-V blogged@ 9:29 PM___________________Today finally play basketball with the BianTai-ians. Even though not all are present but still most of them are. There's me, Shermeen jiejie, Priscilia, Evon, Sharon, Cherie, HanLin, Pearcesley, LeongWei and WeiSian. hahas. Too bad we could not take photo together. But still I had lots of fun. hahas. I hope next time we will be able to get together more. [=
My stamina dropped. hahas. A few rounds and was huffing and puffing profusely. hahahs. Should go for jogging more like last time. hahas. My shoulder is aching now. hahas. LeongWei named my basketball style as Cristiano Ronaldo style. hahas. No more Lionel Lewis. =D hahas.
Oh ya oh ya. We played blind mice before that and I was a sucker at it. hahahs. I was not able to find and hide. hahas. I'm not use to being blind! hahahas. I rode my bike today. But my basketball spoilt. ]=
Going back for GB on Saturday. [=
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
BianTai-V blogged@ 6:08 PM___________________Signed up for the Drill Instructor test today. Feel so stress already. hahas. God will be there for me. [=
Talk about happy things first. Tomorrow playing basketball. hahas. After so long, finally get to play it and hope tmr's weather will not be like today's. Hope there's no rain and not so much of sun. hahas. Okays. I had nothing to blog about anymore. hahas.
Oh ya oh ya. I had heard the most crappiest thing ever today. hahas. My younger brother told me that in school, they will be reciting pledge in English version on every Monday, Wednesday and Thursday. Whereas on Tuesday, they will be reciting the Chinese version. And guess what, on Friday, they will be reciting the Tamil version's. hahahhas I asked about Malay version and he told me that they had recited it last year. hahahs. Man, if Junyuan had such a policy. That will be funny. hahahs.
"Don't come and go as you like. Think you need me and you will come and find me automatically. Don't need me and you just walk away and I dont know why you didnt want to reply my message. And why must you avoid going out with us? I'm not going to be manipulated by you anymore."
Disppointed with you.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Labels: Faith and believe BianTai-V blogged@ 8:33 PM___________________I went back to GB today. We had orientation. There's a new teacher for GB. She's Mrs. Shirley Sin/Sim. I dont know it's which one. hahas. She's from Henderson Secondary. She was also a GB teacher from her former school. Actually she is a BB and GB officer now. She is also from the City Harvest Church as told by Ms Chiam. So, hope we could go forth more with her help and also by God's help! I really hope that the two Sec.1 girls will not opt out of GB. I really hope they will stay. I will be praying! Ms Chiam is sick too and so I will be praying too!
Why Pretend?
BianTai-V blogged@ 12:46 PM___________________I had nothing to blog about but just want to say...
I'm hungry! :D hahahas.
I'm off to school for GB in a hour plus time! :D Byes. [=
Sunday, February 1, 2009
BianTai-V blogged@ 11:29 PM___________________You know what? Ya, this is the second post for today. But there's a lot of things I want to voice out. hahas. Sounds so serious.
You know what? I miss my friends. Miss them real hard. Be it my BianTai family, my cliques or anyone. I miss them. I had been at home for the past few days and I dont really have the energy to go out. Whenever I look out of the window and saw groups of students walking together after school and I will remember about what happened whenever my clique got together.
Going to poly soon. And everything had to start all over again. Had to re-introduce yourself to everyone and I hate this part. I dont know will I be able to rise up to the challenge. I might break down, I might be able to cope. I dont know. But what I know is that, I have God. He will help me. Thank God, I have God in my life.
BianTai-V blogged@ 11:10 PM___________________hahas. Today my paternal relatives came. So our house ended up having 27 people in it. Luckily my home is big enough to store them up. hahas. As usual, they create a havoc in our home. hahas. The younger ones in particular, they were like little devils. They go to every room and play, jump on the bed and turn the room upside down. Especially my poor BaoBao! They put him in the hamster ball in and out, in and out. Keep feeding him like the food cost no money like that. hahahas.
As usual, my cousin will be starting the gambling fashion. Lady luck is with me today. I started out with a mere 20cents and guess what, in the end, I ended up with $10.40. Nope, you didnt see wrongly. I had got $10.40 back in the end. But out of the money I had won, $6 came from my elder brother. He gave it to me. But still, $4.40 is won by me. hahahs. And and! I had won three rows consecutively with the what called ban luck? And three more after that. :D
For dinner, my cousin bought crabs. And also, a yu sheng which is enough to feed 10 people. But I ran away after they started stirring. I dont like the smell and the taste of it, so yucky. hahas.
I had not been feeling well these few days, so had been locking myself at home. But, I will be going back to school on Tuesday. GB! [=
"Everything started out so soon yet now, it's too late for any regrets."
